slow, steady steps
photo by Tracey Clark, polaroid of me by Andrea Jenkins, aka Hula
My travels are over and my visitors are gone. For the first time since July, there isn't another thing just around the corner. I'm dreaming of hibernating for the winter. Of not leaving Brooklyn soil for a good long time.
What I have now is some space. Space to pull my home back into order, one room at a time. (Maybe I'll post some photos.) Time to catch up with my friends. Room to just stare at the wall or out the window, until all that I have seen and done and been seeps from my surface down to the core.
I can finally look through photographs, and register in a new way: I was there. That was us. We did that. Expectation has finally given way to remembrance.
Today is a school holiday, and I hoped for an adventure. But we all seem under the weather, so I think a day at home with cookie-baking and movies may be in order. I'll pick something up, and put it away. Hang something new on the wall. Then I'll look again at the photographs, then out the window, and take a few slow, steady steps toward home.
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like you, i'm really happy to have my traveling done and to get back into life here. my daughter has school, we don't have work so we're tackling our garage to create space and enjoying the time working together.
i really love your polaroid, it's such a beautiful portrait of you.
hello, ms. lee! i must admit that i feel the teensiest bit shy writing for you - you inspire me greatly and i look up to you as an artist and as an actress! your photos are lovely and i very much enjoy coming to your blog! i am passing along to you the "one lovely blog" award -
check it out here: http://www.mypeacetree.blogspot.com/2009/10/one-lovely-blog-award.html
I definitely relate ... feels like this time is for resting up and refueling for all of the juicy new adventures that await in 2010. Be peace.
we have already settled into hibernation mode. love love love that photo. slow and steady. yes.
xo
Isn't winter a gift of hibernation and going in after spreading ourselves all around in the warmer months? I think. Love the photo. Subscribe to her site bc of you. And may I be so bold to suggest some of your anguish expressed here recently from time to time may have been all the demands of going-doing-being and now's the time for restoring? Hope I'm not too bold to say so. Do not mean to be co-dependent here. And I do know how this can be personally. You are wonderful.
lately i've called myself a turtle....and reading your post confirms this new image :) maybe i'm a turtle with wings b/c i adore fairies :) but still, the pace we each carve out for ourselves only has to enable us to be true to our hearts...you to me seem to exude that conviction. :) here's to more steady still moments :)
'Expectation has finally given way to remembrance'. *sigh* the words I needed at the very moment I needed them. I'm soaking in fall over here, each playful leaf-crunching step at a time.
Glad to hear that you survived your whirlwind of travel and guests. I hope that you enjoy your introspective time. Hope to catch up with you soon!